sometimes i
rap the rhythm of music
on my bare knuckles
because i want to
feel the music
in my bones
the joints smash and
crack together
i'm reminded of
lightning and
forgiveness
all the ways you
used to look at me
a wonderment
an oddity
something never
not quite ever
seen
no matter
how hard i hit
there's nothing
but silence
to linger
in my marrow